Intro Post

[luciazephyr]

This LJ is...


banner by me, do not take

... Mostly. About a third of the entries are FLocked and all the RPS fic is under lock. If you'd like to be friended, comment here and specify whether you're here for fic or not, just so I know.

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ETA (December 30, 2008): I no longer write RPS. I'm deeply into the video gaming fandom now. You can find my past RPS work at fakenews_fanfic. Only RL stuff is locked now, really.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Oh man... okay. I really don't want to start a whole bunch of wank, and I wish there were some way I could send this to you both privately and anonymously, but there's not, so I have to leave it as a comment on an unlocked entry. I know I could just send a private message as myself, but I'm too much of a coward to even do that.

I'm the one who wrote the FS.

And I am very, very sorry.

Basically, I'm a lurker-type. I don't write fic, but I wish I could. I've tried a few times, but the honest truth is that I just don't have the gift that you and a number of other fn_ff writers have.

Unfortunately, I saw your post about the new writers failing Keith late at night, the same evening of a messy breakup, and I was feeling like a complete and total asshole. I made and submitted the secret without even thinking.

Trust me, when I remembered it a few days later, I felt awful. I had hoped that you wouldn't see it and that it wouldn't be a big deal, but I guess I was wrong.

=/

Anyway, I'm so sorry. I've been stung by idiots on the internet in the past, and I feel horrid knowing that I sank low enough to become one of those idiots.

And I really am a big fan of yours---I have a great deal of respect for your writing, and from what I've gathered of you as a person.

Your entry about Keith was not offensive, and I had no way to react the way I did, much less in such a sleazy forum as fandom secrets.

I hope you'll forgive me.


Also, again, I really don't want to start more wank than I already have, so if you'd care to screen this comment, it would be appreciated... if not, however, I understand.

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

I'm so very relieved to read this. I was terrified that some part of fandom was secretly hating me behind my back and this is... a big relief.

I'm slightly wary that I still don't know who you are and that bugs me... But I understand that.

Just... be aware that what you did fucking hurt and I spent quite a while after reading that secret crying and feeling like instead of helping the fandom, I was hurting it. It was fucking horrible and I'm glad you feel bad.

But I forgive you.

[(Anonymous)]

No, no, not at all. Quite the contrary, in fact---you're one of the most adored and admired people *in* the fandom.

If it matters to you, then I'm happy to tell you. I doubt it would mean much. As I said, I'm more or less a lurker.

I realize that, and again, I am so very sorry. Just re-reading it I was struck by what a fucking awful thing that was for me to do. I doubt the fandom would be half what it is today were it not for you and your fic.

Thank you for your forgiveness. You're a much better person than I.

[spamala97.livejournal.com]

I just read darkecology and flakygoddess's comments on your other post, and they're completely right.

Here I am, then.

It was fucking cowardly of me to make the secret, and to post it, and to reply anonmyously. I can't ever really excuse my behavior, and I don't pretend to do so. I have made a series of mistakes that seem to be snowballing into serious fandom wank, and I know that, having started the snowball rolling, I more than deserve whatever negative comments will now be directed at me. Again, I'm only sorry that I did such a hurtful, thoughtless thing by responding to your Keith entry the way I did.

Blame it on a lack of life experience, or understanding of internet etiquitte, perhaps? *shakes head* I'm not quite sure what to do, anymore.

Again, I apologize, sincerely and whole-heartedly, for my stupid and insensitive behavior. I wasn't lying when I said I am quite a fan of yours. If nothing else, maybe I'll be able to crawl out of this with some greater understanding of maturity, simply having seen the fine example you set to deal with internet dipshits such as myself.

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

... I really didn't expect it to be you. I'm kind of shocked.

I won't hold a grudge against you. Though, that said, I will be cutting you from my FList. I don't really trust you to read my locked entries and since all my major fic is posted to the FNFF comm, you can read what you want there.

[spamala97.livejournal.com]

That's fair. If I were in your position, I'd do the exact same thing.

Again, sorry for all the pointless internet drama this caused.

I wish you nothing but the best.

[spamala97.livejournal.com]

On a really unrelated [and probably vaguely inappropriate, given the circumstances] note, I wanted to tell you that I finished Good Omens and loved it... anyway, thank you, because I wouldn't have read it if it hadn't been you your GO-PRT fics.

:/

Heh, alright. I'm leaving now.

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

... Any other day, and I'd be thrilled. Sorry.