but you were shrugging it off like a feather and saying, oh would you look at this weather

[luciazephyr]

• Dropped from omphalotus_rp. I remain enamored by the premise, but it's impossible to enjoy with so few people. My castmates don't seem keen on it anyway either, so. I'll try again at a later date should it pick up some. For now, I'll stick to FM and museboxing.



• ... Mum's sick again. Headaches and earaches today. She was still in pain when I put her to bed tonight.
  
  Yanno, it was only a few months ago that I started sleeping with my door open. Nights like this, I'm always afraid of her needing me and my not hearing it because of my door. I get nauseated with worry of what could happen. I won't sleep well tonight.



• Yikes. Depressing, aren't I? Anyway, I'm writing a lot more lately. Fic with Fly that will hopefully turn out awesome (though I feel like I'm not writing as much as I should be for that one and feel incredibly guilty). Thene convinced me to write mindscrewy VR violence fic for mgs_slash's Repeat to Fade challenge. If I pull it off, it should be nicely disturbing.

-Lucy

Comments

[pseudovirtueman.livejournal.com]

eeeh... you know that athena is currently sick and I have two logs going, right?

[firefly99.livejournal.com]

Don't be guilty. If it was me the fic would be The Me Show where characters rhapsodised all the time about MEEEE. You help me keep a lid on my massive egotism.

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

That'd be a no, but even before, we made plans for a log and it never really happened. I just couldn't get a hold of her....

Those two logs haven't moved in ages and I just... the game is so small.

The mods said I can jump back in at anything. If anyone ever gets the urge to play with my character, I'll be there.

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

I have to go to work, like, now, but

Dropping was a stupid, impulsive thing I did really late last night. I should have waited and at least talked to you. I am sorry. I just am tired of the extreme slowness of the game since it feels like the premise is being wasted. And I keep dropping tags without good reason and I hate being that person. If I'm gonna play there, I want to actually have fun for once and to be a good player for the game. At the moment, it doesn't feel like I'm doing either.

And now I'm running to work.

[saphrawn.livejournal.com]

it's just

whenever you join a game with us, you drop after a while and it's getting a bit irritating, i mean okay, i can understand that it's frustrating if it's slow and small, but dropping won't...solve that? especially after athena kicked your butt after telling you to join a game and all. idk. maybe you should take a look at a bigger and faster came like cape and cowl after all?

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

I wanted to enjoy ompha, but I haven't felt a part of my cast since Amat. We don't talk anymore and that's probably at least partially my fault. But when half the in-game cast only posts closed logs that the other half can't play in, that's just... it doesn't feel like a cast. And I wanted to play with that amazing, talented cast.

Whenever we all join a game, there's so little done with it, I just feel frustrated and think I should drop. I hate character squatting, and when I go a week without so much as a hint of a tag, I just. Gah.

Saph, obviously I screwed up again. Maybe you guys should just find another Otacon who isn't a whingy bitch. Sorry for wasting your time.

[saphrawn.livejournal.com]

you could have just asked. I logged with Athena and Emmy because they asked me :/

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

...

I did ask you. :confused:

[saphrawn.livejournal.com]

you just asked abuot an open log, and I said Id do one later

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

It doesn't matter anymore. I screwed up, not talking to people when I should have and letting RL bother and make me do stupid impulsive things.

I'm taking a hiatus. Get my shit straightened out. I really am sorry for being a consistently shitty mun ever since Amat. If you don't want to play with me again, I understand. If so, I'm going to stop playing Hal for a while. Go more obscure, maybe Juri or Agent Washington. I dunno.

[saphrawn.livejournal.com]

we can talk about that later on AIM or somesuch...gotta run for school now