the dashboard melted but we still have the radio
(the dashboard melted but we ran it good, we ran it good)
hardwired to conceive so much we had to stow it
even needs have needs, tiny giants make tinier giants
don't wear eyelids so I don't miss the last laugh of the show
(the dashboard melted but we still have the-)
well, we coulda been, shoulda been worse than you would ever know
well, you told me about nowhere- well, it sounds like someplace I'd like to go
now here we go
well, we schemed and we schemed but we'd always blow it
we've yet to crash but we still might as well tow it
saying, "see, it wasn't quite as bad as
it woulda been, coulda been worse than you would ever know"
I suppose it'd be wise to get ready to bid farewell to you all. Just in case.
I was given an ultimatum. I have a week to be hired or I'll be forced to sell many of my possessions (including my 360 and my laptopl) and move to Florida. As in, in two weeks, I'm gone.
I don't know if I'll be able to stay in contact once I'm there. I don't know what my resources will be but for my grandmum's sofabed. There is a lot of I Don't Know at the moment.
I... As much as I insist to my RP buddies that I am nothing like my character, there is one aspect in which we are identical. We both love very easily. And I do love all of you who've gifted me with your time and attention, advice and laughter. Every second that one of you gave me cause to think of something other than my shitty situation was like gifting a starved man with ambrosia, and I thank you all for it.
It's my only hope that I don't lose you all. I am a weak person at my core and rely on my connections to others to survive. Losing my home and my loved ones all at once will utterly destroy me- I know this, and am already steeling myself for it, overdosing myself on musical hope and trying to shut of that urge to be with and talk with people. I can only pray to non-existent gods that it will be an unneeded precautions, but I've never been a person to be considered lucky.
It's been a complete and total dream to know you all. Don't underestimate how much joy you can grant a person.