*curses loudly*

[luciazephyr]

I'm going to Canada and nothing Andrew Fuckin' Talon says is going to stop me. Did he consider for ONE SECOND it wasn't about me disliking America? Maybe I just wanted to try something new?

What an asshole.

The second I can sign up for it, I'm taking French lessons. I swear to God.

*fumes*

Amazing, how you think you know someone so goddamn well and they turn around and suddenly hate what you're doing with life. Talk about backstabbing...

Glad I have Nueva and Lance. So glad some people don't get pissy at my life desicions.

Sorry Nueva. The whole Talon/Lu thing ain't gonna work out.

*tries desperately not to cry**fails*

~Lucia

Comments

[nachomanlance.livejournal.com]

Care to provide a backstory, Lu? If you want to keep it private, send an individual MSN message. I'll do all I can to help, as I'll always be here to listen.

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

Talon came onto MSN and we got to talking. Somehow the topic of my plans to go to Canada came up. Talon got all bitchy about it, saying I shouldn't be hating on America so much and that all I gave a damn about was Gay Marriage.

Wrong on both accounts.

I yelled back at him.

End of story.
~Lucia

[nachomanlance.livejournal.com]

What exactly did you yell back at him, and what did he say?

Or do you have the convo saved?

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

He said I wa to impressionable.

I told him I might be, but I'd rather have Nueva make the impression on me than him.

~Lucia

[nachomanlance.livejournal.com]

Perhaps he finds it upsetting that you look after Nueva and not himself. You know Talon, he's got a large ego. All this time, he's wanted you to be on his side and give you reasons to cherish him. And he knows that you and Nueva are close friends, but he didn't want that relationship to be stronger than his and yours.

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

Jealousy? WTFH?

That's not it.

~Lucia

[nachomanlance.livejournal.com]

*holds up hands* I'm just throwing out some ideas here. But it's always a possiblilty. Or if anything, he's just trying to slowly force you into Repulican status again.

Again, just tossing them out.

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

If its the Republican thing, i'll never speak to him again.

My views are my choice, damnit.

~Lucia

[nachomanlance.livejournal.com]

Again, it leads me to believe that he wants to "be the pants" of the relationship. Making the decisions and whatnot. Quite common for couples, or so I read.

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

Not gonna happen. I'm not gonna relinquish control.

Either way, it's not gonna happen now.

~Lucia

[nachomanlance.livejournal.com]

So you're serious about this breaking up thing? You don't want me to talk to Talon at all?

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

No. I'm not gonna end up with Talon, Lance. Sorry.

Then again, since when did I ever want to be tied down via marriage?

~Lucia

[nachomanlance.livejournal.com]

Even so, I wanna talk to him about it. I promise not to get involved in any way unless I'm asked to, but I want to hear his side of the story.

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

I don't care what you do. he's screwed up and I'm not going to deal with him anymore.

~Lucia

I'm Sorry

[andrew-talon18.livejournal.com]

I have been under so much stress. I'm so alone and isolated here at college. I am frustrated and on edge, and angry.

But it's no excuse to act like how I did. And I am sorry. Lucia, I love you. And since when have we broken off entirely because of something stupid I said?

I'm sorry. I was a jerk. I jumped to a conclusion that I shouldn't have. And you paid the price. And I paid the price. Please, forgive me.

Re: I'm Sorry

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

Honestly? Give me a while to think about it.

~Lucia

Oi.....what a way to come back to reality.....

[nuevayuimaxwell.livejournal.com]

Why does everything has to blown sky high when I'm not around? Listen to me BOTH of you. I'm not going to stand by and watch the 2 of you rip yourself apart. Unlike Lance, and probably not doing the right thing, I'm going to get involved, since anyway, from what I've gathered, I am in some way.

Talon, first, you HAVE to understand that Lu-chan is the ONLY master of her life. SHE's the one that makes HER OWN decision. Friends are there to provide the broadest band of opinions possible, but the decision still only belong to Lu-chan. And good friends ALWAYS respect their friend's choices, even though they do not approve of it. And trying to change the opinion of others by attacking their view (something you are prone to do, and I know you know it) is WRONG, at least to my opinion. For example, Lance prefers only women to men. I may not approve of his choice, but I RESPECT it, because it is HIS life. And I'm NOT trying to change his likings just because it would suit me better. And it goes the same for ALL her opinions, political ones INCLUDED. You can be very rude and prone to insults and ways of hurting people when you are arguing. I KNOW it, I've been there, I've been hurt. You've GOT to respect your friends, or else you will loose them.

Secondly, yes Lu-chan is still young. And yes she's influenceable. But who isn't at that time of their life? Teen age years are where you forge your personality by emulating personal traits you like in other people you live with, and trying to avoid the ones you hate. Lu-chan is doing that presently, and to my opinion, IT IS ABSOLUTELY NORMAL AND NECESSARY. Am I such a bad role model? Would you prefer her to emulate a cold bitch who doesn't care about anything else then her appearance and herself? She has emulated traits from you, from Lance and from Silver. You all influence her, and you all try to do it the best and the rightest way possible. I try to do the same. As for bisexuality, she need to experiment some kind of relationship in order to know what she likes or not. It is part of the growing phase of teenage years. It is NOT a disease, either, and I have ABSOLUTELY NOT influenced her, consciously at least. Yet again, it is HER choice.

HOWEVER, I do understand that you love her and that you are worried about her. Moving to another country IS a huge move in a life time. But it might what would be best for her, and it might be not. If you never try, you never know. And maybe Canada is what she thinks is truly best for her. It does correspond to her political view. But it is not the State, we're not at the top of the food chain. But we are more open-minded. But we have less technology based economy. You see, she has to see for herself, she has to choose which cons and pros are the best for her and move or stay according to that.

As for you honey, please try to understand his point of view too. I'm not saying that he used the best way to explain it to you, but it is Talon remember? He's no M.Diplomacy, but we still love him anyway. He loves you as much as I do and cares as much as I do. That is why he's worried about you. Just a like a parent, he just wants the best for you. Honey, please, do consider seriously about forgiving him. I love you both immensely, and I don't want to see you drift apart for something that stupid, ok? We have lost and cry much in the past months, can we all be adults and try to resolve this without another rupture and/or lost?

Please, don't stay angry at each other, ok?

Love you both dearly,

Nueva

Re: Oi.....what a way to come back to reality.....

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

Of course I'm thinking about it. It's just not easy to say "No harm done" when that's not true.

I'm just getting sick of it. Every time we talk, we start pulling punches over the way I see politics. Hell, I gave up talking about it and somehow it still comes up!

I'm just tired of it. It doesn't seem worth it anymore.

~Lucia

Teh Kewkie Doctor

[tsuki-tybrin.livejournal.com]

*distributes a bag of chocolate chip cookies to everyone* Take two of these a day and you'll all be happy in no time ^.^

[(Anonymous)]

There's always an important lesson to be learnt here... relationships and clans don't always mix and... "feels eyes on him" i'll go back into exile

"grumbles"

Taro MD

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

i'l go back into exile

Yes, please do. And be quick about it.

If I wanted your opinion, I'd ask. But I wouldn't get to ask because the day I wanted your thoughts on any part of my personal life, I'd call Silver and ask her to come shoot me.

~Lucia

"grumbles"

[taromd-british.livejournal.com]

So much for that.

N1nj4

[nachomanlance.livejournal.com]

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