The weight upon your eyelids is dimes laid on your eyes.

[luciazephyr]

Ganked from flakygoddess because when I feel melancholy, I do memes. Yeah, I dunno either.

List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.

1. I really despise Summer. I have fun for about a month, but then loneliness gets to me and I go extremely stir-crazy due to the whole "middle of nowhere" and "apiphobia" things that keep me inside. I used to think Autumn was may favorite season because of how beautiful it was, but now I suspect it's just the relief of getting back to school and people.



2. I got the name Lucia a long time ago. I was playing one of the SSX trilogy (I think it was the second one, SSX Tricky) and was enjoying dominating the high score board. I didn't want to put my real name or "Tanaka" since I was becoming disenchanted with that name anyway. I heard the Red Hot Chili Peppers' "The Zephyr Song" and was struck by how soothing and comforting the song was, mainly that chorus line- Fly away on my Zephyr. I used Zephyr as my new name.
   
   It was only later that I got into Greek mythology and learned of Zephyrus, the god of the gentle winds who was kind and helpful but also very jealous and occasionally spiteful. I love it more now.



3. When I'm stressed, I hug myself and get very monosyllabic.



4. I'm terrified of being alone and I worry about going off on my own in the world. This freaks me out because I'd love to find someone to live with, but I don't want to force my abandonment issues on anyone.



5. I talk to myself when I'm alone. I was left on my own a lot as a kid and to make up for not having many friends, I talked to characters I had read in my books or seen on television. I had quite long conversations with them.
   
   Occasionally, I do the same thing with the characters I write, usually the OCs like Ezirael or Asmodai.



6. I recently realized that I'm prejudiced against religion. Even if someone if a perfectly decent person, I'll think less of them if I learn they're religious. There are a few exceptions to this though.



7. I don't think I particularly excel at anything. Not fishing for compliments, just sayin'. There are better writers, vidders, artists- what have you. That makes keeping dreams alive hard, but... c'est la vie, yeah?

That's all, I think. I'm tired, no one is online, so I'm going to bed.

I'm sorry I'm not updating like I used to, LJ. I think I'll get better once I'm back in school. I'm just so delicate lately.

-Luce

Comments

[th-esaurus.livejournal.com]

1, 4, 5, 6 and 7: me too.

*hugs*

[flakygoddess.livejournal.com]

Your list, it could be my list. The good thing about #7, though, is that it's pretty much true of everyone. I have long since given up on trying to be the best at anything and now settle for good enough to get paid. Uh...I mean, the best I can be. Yeah. That's it.