I made things. House-y things.

Using lyrics from "The Facts About Jimmy" by Shawn Colvin. That song is pretty much James Wilson, compressed to just under five and a half minutes, ya? One banner and one wallpaper of the same style.

( I miss Jimmy like I miss my wine... )

Just lemme know if you like or if you're using either. Credit would be nice if someone wants the banner.

-Luce

A thoughtful meme I highly recommend...

A quick meme from thenateboy & fan_this: Ten Random Thoughts

1- I've read quite a few books. Not a ton, certainly, but the big ones that are widely accepted as required reading online. I find it very... odd that I'm more affected by certain fanfics than all the books I've ever read. Like... the first that comes to mind is trinityofone's Taunhauser's Gate (or however it's spelled), and Jenn's Running Through Water, miriam_heddy's Lachesis, and most of rageprufrock's more serious works. It makes me feel a bit wrong, that you can buy psychological/philosophical book for a pretty penny, but fanfic authors will rock your world for free.

2- There are certain fic authors who deserve to be paid for their work. Among them: Shalott, Jenn, Trinity, Pru, Miriam, Camilla, Nos', and a few others.

3- I think Kitanne is one of my best friends right now.

4- I hate the codes of secrecy we are all forced to live by online for our own safety. I'd love to have one of my online fen call me up on the phone and say "hey, I'm driving past you on my way to a con. Wanna grab lunch?" And isn't it worrying that someday, one of your FList buddies will suddenly stop updating, stop commenting, stop showing up in chat- go completely missing. If that happens, one of two things would probably happen. One, you'd worry and confer with mutual friends, trying to get wind of what happened (see: anything Danvers goes missing), but ultimately be unable to do anything about it. That leads to two, which is find new people and move on. The second one is rather disturbing to me.

5- I have a lot of grief over the loss of my first only family. It was a group of fic writers that wrote about each other. The 'Tribute to Music Clan' or T2M. We were not brilliant writers, but oh how we loved each other. Let's see... it was Taro MD, Nueva Yui Maxwell, Silver Raye Adams, Lance Waymire, Em, Emily, Tori Yuki Ichimura, Samuel McShannock, and... Andrew Joshua Talon. Oh my lord, my Talon. I was young, dizty, and kinda of idolized him at first. Then I just loved bugging him, teasing him, making him laugh and smile. He was, what, three years my senior? I think? He was cute, funny, and sensitive, and I fucked it royal. It wasn't all my fault. We just... wow, this sounds stupid in hindsight, but we discovered our belief systems. He followed the conservative mindset, and as you all know, I'm a hardcore liberal (actually, more of a radical than anything). Everytime we talked, it disintegrated into shouting matches.

6- They say you always remember your first love, because they hurt the most. Not really. My first love was a boy in my year named Stephen. Andrew was my second love. He's the one who keeps me up at odd hours of the night, wondering if he remembers that little girl who wrote him stories and threw panic attacks when he gave her his FF.Net password to update the info while he was away. I've grown. I know it. I'd like to talk to him again someday, to see what became of him.

7- I'm losing my mei-mei soon. I'm terrified about the idea of forgetting what her voice sounds like, just as I forgot what Andrew's sounded like.

8- I am also terrified of the future. I have big dreams of things I'd love to do. I am absolutely certain I will not accomplish any of them.

9- I have things I love about myself. I love the way I speak. It makes no sense, it's a mix-up of tons of different cultural bits I've picked up over the years. I change accent mid-sentence, say things like "yo", "ne", and "ya", and have to backtrack to translate myself into normal Yank English at times. On the other hand, I hate my weird attention span. I have more incomplete projects (stories, ideas, drawings, etc) than even the worst authors. I just make sure not to mention them to people so no one goes "say, wtf happened to that one thing you were doing?"

10- I have serious doubts that I'll have an intimate relationship with someone. I'm surprisingly okay with this.

-Luce