broken glass, spilled milk, lying on the floor looking dead

[luciazephyr]

Too often, I find the only reason I don't have a mental breakdown and start screaming is that I know it's not going to help anything.

:rubs eyes:

-Lucy

Comments

[tarastara.livejournal.com]

Wish I was that controlled!
:( ♥?

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

You know, I sometimes genuinely wonder if I'd be less of a basketcase if I let myself snap once in a while... Maybe it's cathartic?

[tarastara.livejournal.com]

You know, I don't think it's fun either way... Maybe try eliminating the source instead?

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

After a year of looking for a job, I'm not sure what else I can do to eliminate the source.

[tarastara.livejournal.com]

Aww, poor boo. ♥ ♥
I'm not really the best person to be giving advice re: breakdowns, but I hope you feel better, anyway.
If you need somewhere to vent, I'm tarastarok on AIM. I'm an alright listener.

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

I probably won't ping you, but don't think it's because I don't appreciate the offer. It's just... that's the entire situation: I cannot find a job, this fact is making my mother and I hate each other. There, that's the entirety of the problem. :shrugs: Not much to say.

[tarastara.livejournal.com]

I understand.
That's...no good, aaaa. Whether you're employed or not shouldn't affect relationships so bad! Mnn...have you told her how you feel? Maybe during a calmer time and try to explain yourself without freaking? Sometimes it's better to write it down?

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

Neither of us are in the wrong. I'm not pulling my weight and she resents me for it. At the same time, she's not the one who's never gotten a call-back, no matter how good an impression I think I've made. It's a vicious cycle and I'm just hoping I get a job before she cracks and something bad happens.

[tarastara.livejournal.com]

I didn't think either of you were; just sometimes it's much better to talk it out. Stuff like that all too often causes stupid amounts of stress for both parties, especially in the state this nation is in. I feel like it would be beneficial to say something to let her know it's hurting your relationship and how you feel about her, because she might not even notice...and that's never what a mother wants.

[thene]

*proffers hug* Been there :/ Most hopeless fucking feeling in the world. I really hope you can find ways to avert breakdown, though. :(

[mercystars.livejournal.com]

I agree. (And I always find ***I'm*** the one cleaning up any messes afterwards that are incurred during said breakdowns.)

[silver11016.livejournal.com]

Amen, babe. I know the feeling.

(And as cathartic as it is to just send a plate sailing into a wall, I'm always the one cleaning up my own broken pottery, and that's just tedious.)

[raucousraven.livejournal.com]

Hey, that is my reasoning too! It also saves the vocal chords for sustained sessions of under-the-breath venting.

It also applied when there was an enormous carpet-coloured spider lurking on the carpet last week. Fortunately, she moved in time and all ended well (i.e. her assisted escape), but us say that had there been any use in screaming I would have been audible at the Pole. Either one, trust me on this.