I'm such a terrible person. *sobs*

[luciazephyr]

Damnit, damnit. Damnit.



Mom and I were going through DVDs we want to sell. Came across my RuroKen DVDs. I said I was out of my phase with them.

*headdeskheaddeskHEADDESK*

Mom was quiet. Then she told me I ruined X-Mas.

The hellz she talking about...?

Apprently she bought me the entire boxed set of the Kyoto Arc.

Aww.... Fuck me. *headesk*

She's returning it, and claims it's okay. I still feel so bad about it. >.< *whacks selfs repeatedly with the idiot mallet*

Why?

Well, I don't get nice things like that often. Really. I'm definately not in the money, if you understand. I'm very grateful for what I do have, but that doesn't stop me from lusting for other things I want. See she me looking for a cheap RuroKen set on Amazon, so she figured it would make me happy. And it did, but I'm still out of the anime-phase. So she was being so kind to me, and I fucked it up. >.< Damnit to hell.



I am scum. *curls up on the floor and wallows*

~Dr. Zeph

Comments

[nachomanlance.livejournal.com]

Thus we discover the dark side of fangirl-ism. Obsessions, once a treasured lifestyle, now a thing of the past. Who we once thought as someone we will come to know for years, now becomes someone else. You would think it hard to let go of the things you once loved... but this is the behavior of fangirls/boys. They need new obsessions like we need air.

A sad side of fangirl-ism....

In any case, at least you know that your Mother does indeed care for you. I'd be damned if my Mother ever bought me anything online, much less anything over $100. But still... this is sometimes why you need to be careful. What you once liked years ago, may not be so anymore. I mean, if you think about it right now, do you think you could ever get out of your Stargate: Atlantis/McKay phase? It may seem impossible now, but look back.

Oi.. sorry if I'm acting annoying. You're in a bad enough mood anyway >_<

But hey, cheer up! I made a cool meme I'm sure you'll enjoy ^_^ I had you in mind, after all.

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

Anime is different, Lancey. I've always quit them after a while. Stargate, I've literally grown up with. Grandma started my on it at... God, 7 years old. It's part of my character.

And I've always like the arrogant jerks who are uber-smart. I mean, I still love just listening to Joshua Lyman of The West Wing rant. He's a political genius.

Meme? Tell me, oh Lancey. I like Memes.

~Lucia

[slashophile.livejournal.com]

No you're not! If you'd gotten them you would've returned them anyway, right? And if you'd kept them then it'd been a wasted Christmas gift.

And now for what your mum said. My mum never would have said that! She'd have quietly taken them back and never spoke of it. I think your mom took it too personally. Which is not your fault in slightest.

No diss meant on your mom of course.

If I sex you up will you feel better? And if I promise to have that fic done sometime next week because it turned out to be a real bitch, would you feel better?

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

Okay, so I'm not scum. But I'm still a bitch.

She meant it jokingly, but I could still tell she was upset.

None taken.

Don't worry. SGA last night cheered me up. And my pr0ny dreams abotu said episode too...

~Lucia

[slashophile.livejournal.com]

okai, uze a bitch. ::wink::

Oh, okay than that's a little better. ::smile:: I would have to smite thy mother! Not really of course

Okie doke.

Yeah! Rodney was teh uber kewtness.

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

*bows*

You should meet my Nueva-chan. She also has a habit of smiting people to protect me. O.O It's amazing, I act like a bitch and people still like me. *boggles*

I wasn't thinking of the work kewt, myself...

~Lucia

D'OH! >_<

[nuevayuimaxwell.livejournal.com]

**scratches RuroKen on her christmas gift list for Lu-chan** Oi oi....as if it was not already hard to get you something......

I know how you feel. I'm not used to that either. On the first christmas I spent with X's family, her mother gave me a set of stove pot in stainless steel. One I was always checking when we were shopping in the "house department" store thingy. One that was way too expensive for me to ask for Xmas. When I opened the box, I couldn't say anything.....I just sat there and cried of happiness. The ironic part in the story is that X's mother thought I was disappointed with my gift.....lol Anyway, I know how you feel. But as Lancey-boy said, this proves that your mother cares. At least enough to know your obsessions! lol

Take care,

Miss you much my koibito,

Nueva

Re: D'OH! >_<

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

**scratches RuroKen on her christmas gift list for Lu-chan** Oi oi....as if it was not already hard to get you something......

*headdeskheaddeskHEADDESK*

~Lucia

Re: D'OH! >_<

[nuevayuimaxwell.livejournal.com]

***puts a pillow between Lu-chan's head and the desk** No need to hurt you, honey. I'll find something else....something better! ^______^ Or I'll just send X down to your house, so that he can fool your Mom into marrying you and bring you back here, where you can divorce him and marry me afterwards! ^_____^ lol

Aishiteru,

Nueva

Re: D'OH! >_<

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

...I'm liking this plan. You get the SciFi channel? If I can watch SGA over there in grand ol' Canada, I'll pack my things. *laughs*

Feel the hawtness that is McKay!

~Lucia

Re: D'OH! >_<

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

Where'd you get you LJ icon? The chick in the labcoat.

~Lucia

Re: D'OH! >_<

[nuevayuimaxwell.livejournal.com]

The icon? It's really old! I did it myself with some dollmakers on the net. It's suppose to be me.....pretty accurate actually! ^_^ I'm really happy about it. I should change the long hair for shorter one though! ^_^

Thanks for the back up comment on the boards. You can't know how much it is appreciated..... ^_^

Love,

Nueva

Re: D'OH! >_<

[nuevayuimaxwell.livejournal.com]

Hehehehe.....Right now, I don't have it, but for you, I'll get numeric TV with all accessable channels! ^_~

Now to convince X.....**starts to plot how to baclmail him into her plan**.....Honey, I think your evilness is contagious.....and I like it! ^_~

<3,

Nueva

Re: D'OH! >_<

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

Mmmm. Okay! *bounces* Not only to I lust for a Canadian geek with messy, cute brown hair, I get to be in Canada at the time of teh lustage. Squee!

Personally, I seduction works better than blackmail. You can't get sued for seduction! *nods rapidly*

~Lucia

Re: D'OH! >_<

[nuevayuimaxwell.livejournal.com]

O_O Good idea! And I'll get something out of it too! ^_~

Where are you honey? I'm figuring you're online, but you're not connect to MSN neither AIM......sneaking on again? ^_~

Just wanted to tell you that I'm about to post my answer about the baka coming back. I though it could interest you!

Love,

Nueva

Re: D'OH! >_<

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

True. Ya see! Seduction is teh sex! Unlike blackmail with is... not.

Sneaking. *pressing finger to lips*

Took ya long enough! I was thinking of dragging you to the forums. Not that what happens in the clan concerns me much anymore, but whatever.

~Lucia

Re: D'OH! >_<

[nuevayuimaxwell.livejournal.com]

Why does it not concerns you much anymore? It's not the first time you've said that, and I'm curious to know why.....care to enlighten me mi amore?

Nueva

Re: D'OH! >_<

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

Haven't you noticed how little I have to do with the clan nowadays? I mean, I'm still friends with certain members, but I don't pay much attention to it anymore. *shrugs* Like I don't even brainstorm clanfics anymore.

~Lucia

Re: D'OH! >_<

[nuevayuimaxwell.livejournal.com]

Indeed I have noticed it. Lost of interest?

Nueva

Re: D'OH! >_<

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

Pretty much. I'm expanding my horizons. S`why I got the new FF.Net account and am budding up to some new people. Just... done the clan thing. I thought everyone had, considering how quiet it's been.

~Lucia

Re: D'OH! >_<

[nuevayuimaxwell.livejournal.com]

**nods** Yeah, I know, I've felt it too. But I feel I just can't let it go either......I know it doesn't make sense, but that's how I feel. I still feel responsible foe the well-being of the Clan, even though I'm not as active in it as I was....

Nueva

Re: D'OH! >_<

[lucia-tanaka.livejournal.com]

I know. I mean, I still check the forums once or twice a week, just to forfill my duties as Admin. But they're not my priority.

~Lucia

Re: D'OH! >_<

[nuevayuimaxwell.livejournal.com]

It's up on the boards.....

**huggles** I suddenly feel a need for comfort.....:(

Nueva